The One

“I wanna say thank you for giving me everything I always wanted. A love to consume me, and passion, and adventure. There’s nothing more I could ever want than for it to last forever, but it can’t…” Elena, The Vampire Diaries

Most of us have at least had one big love in our lifetimes. We spend all our lives being taught that we will get married when we become adults, have families, and lead a fairly generic life.

I grew up believing in this so called fairy tale of a life. But my life didn’t end up that way. I nearly died in my early twenties, I ended up being gay, and I’ve accomplished a great deal on my own.

In the midst of everything, I found love. I saw him, and things never were the same again. It was a whirlwind courtship, and I am not sure where it began and where it end. Only recently did we both decide to rid our lives of one another. I do miss him, but I don’t want him back. I am not mad or upset over anything. I was given a love that I had always dreamed of. I got exactly what I asked for.

But now that it is over, I have lost touch with who I am. I am easily bored, and not really interested in much anything beyond doing the things I need to do to make sure I am taken care of. I don’t even know where to start when it comes to dating.

In the midst of all this however, I have found joy. I have accepted my imperfections. I have come to love the scars that cover parts of my body. I have become proud of my accomplishments, and have found a self-worth that I never had before. So where do I go from here? I do not know. I’ve decided to devote the rest of this year to getting to know who I am. Find out what gives me passion, and what do I truly enjoy doing.

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The fires of passion

This week a long running aspect between Uranus and Jupiter perfects. Tomorrow, June 22, 2015, Uranus will trine Jupiter. Uranus will be sitting at 20 degrees Aries and Jupiter will be at 20 degrees Leo.

Uranus, the planet that brings change is in a friendly aspect to Jupiter, the planet of luck. I am hopeful that this aspect will bring change for the greater good. Fire signs tend to be the more passionate astrological signs, so under this aspect or the days following it, we may see the U.S. Supreme Court issue a ruling in favor of nationwide same-sex marriage.

This trine between Uranus and Jupiter is ironically taking place right on top of my natal Jupiter. Uranus is currently conjunct my natal Jupiter at 20 degrees aries, and Jupiter is trining my natal Jupiter. There has been some upheavel in my life in the past weeks, but the upheavel has brought in the greater good.

If you are experiencing some change in your life, all towards the greater good, tell me about it in the comments box below.